I feel so useless. So worthless. No job, no motivation to do anything productive most of the time, no actually useful fixations. Can’t really monetize my work because I can barely even finish personal projects.
I haven’t spoken to high school friends in at least a couple of years and I’m terrified to pick conversation back up because even the last time I spoke they were going to college, getting jobs, getting dates. Doing all this cool shit. But even now I don’t have those. What if they ask how I’m doing? I cant lie. What do I say to tell the truth though? I’m a worthless loser who sits on his ass playing Splatoon or doomscrolling, purposefully seeking out bigoted comments and discourse on things like Twitter as a form of psychological s/h and some of what little stimulation he can get, and feeling sorry for himself?
And who of them wants to just listen to me prattle about whatever dumb game or horror project or whatever useless thing I’m fixated on at the time? That was fine when we were teenagers, but I’m almost 25, I feel pathetic.
Ma keeps saying I should monetize my work, but it’s a miracle if I can even finish a personal project about stuff I love. I can’t do commissions like my brother.
I just fucking hate myself so much. I know I need to change, but so far I can’t despite my best efforts. I’m miserable.
Tumblr should still let us self-reblog even if reblogs are turned off, it’s dumb that we can’t.
Anyway wrt to the tags something I didn’t mention there but have been half joking in my head ever since is “now there just needs to be a new Lacey’s and I’ll lose my shit”
It doesn’t matter what kind of comfort characters you have.No matter the series, story, personality, or size, you can like whoever you want.As long as it brings you comfort and makes you happy, go for it. (just prepare for me to block you if you like some disgusting shit/hj)
Anyways, I drew me and my two babies from games that people generally don’t seem to like: Huggy Wuggy (Poppy Playtime) and BanBan (Garten Of BanBan)
Both have their controversial devs, are ElsaGate-ed to the max, and have their games criticised (however one a lot less than the other), but these characters have a bear-grip on my soul.
I don’t support the developers, I only like the characters.
Tumblr should still let us self-reblog even if reblogs are turned off, it’s dumb that we can’t.
Anyway wrt to the tags something I didn’t mention there but have been half joking in my head ever since is “now there just needs to be a new Lacey’s and I’ll lose my shit”
As you wish. I did this one on my phone because I it is late as of when I got the request, and I wanted to do it right away. I put more effort into this one thing than I want to admit.
